Month of Love #8 - Jacqui Hart McCoy


July is my episode month.
July 9th, in fact.
And I am excited.
And I didn't get here alone.
And so, it seems only fitting, that a few of these posts have to do with the many people who played a significant role in helping me to learn, I MATTER.
And don’t get me wrong – that list is LONG.
TOO long for this blog.

However, there a few that, especially this year, this year of Extreme have really shown me that not only do I love them, but also they, in turn, love me.
Jacqui Hart McCoy - Season Two Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition
Love of my life.

^First, why am I so dang short?!
No, seriously?  Why?
(Defensively, no heels, since I had just herniated two discs in my lower back hours before.)

Moving on.

I wrote a post about what I love about her, but let's talk about the friendship we've cultivated.
When Jacqui spoke to the season three folks at the beginning of our casting, I wasn't listening.

No, really, I wasn't.
Sorry, lady, it's just the truth.
I was too busy.
Staring at her hands.
Her tiny, small hands.
And I was thinking, as she spoke about her year, my hands will never be that small.
Ever.

I could lose all the weight in the world and I'll never have small hands.
Other flashes through my mind were, I'll never be that skinny.
Or that beautiful.
Or that confident.
Or have those TINY hands.


A year later, I can assure you, I don't have small hands.
Giant manly hands is more like it. :)
I'll still never be that skinny (and gratefully, have no desire to be),
But some things have changed.

I count Jacqui among some of the greatest friends I will ever have.
We've since been pretty broken in front of each other.
And built each other up.
Made time for one another.
Laughed with each other.
Cooked with each other.
Kangoo-ed together (and by together, I mean, she let me borrow them once.)
We gossip, total honesty here, like 5th graders - and I love every minute of it.
While at bootcamp, we even had a sleep over where I spent a few nights on an air mattress at the foot of her bed (space issues).
:)

And I believe I am as confident.
Because I understand us BOTH to be people pleasers.
We desire so much for others to like us.
First for who we are, and if that's not enough, than for whatever we can do to make you happy.
So - we're learning to not do that so much.
That people who matter, people who REALLY in real life ACTUALLY matter, will love us for everything we are, broken and all.
And there is a sweet, sweet confidence in that understanding.

And while I can't go so far as to say I feel beautiful - yet - as I struggle with body dysmorphia and the mirror and I - we do have our daily battle of wills.
I can say, Jacqui, is far more beautiful than even she can comprehend.
And that makes me think, maybe we are all far more beautiful than we'll comprehend.

She's a helper, a healer, a dreamer, a love giver, a chef, a friend, a comedian, best laugh, time maker, comfort giver, commiserator, and all around wonderful human being.

You all know that because of her episode from Season #2.
Let me confirm that for you in real life.

Mrs. McCoy.  Love Your Face.
Thanks for everything this year and for years to come!

4 comments:

  1. She looks like a wonderful person and your description well, makes me want to meet her :) It's a beautiful thing that you're dedicating the month to these special people that have been there for you. :) Awesome!

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  2. You and Jacqui are differently 2 of my favorite. Glad you guys have each other.

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  3. LOVED your and Jacqui's stories!!! God Bless both of you!!!

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