One Word: 2015
Defined my life.
2014 was as free as a year could be.
I sucked a lot.
At life and sometimes even at work.
Sucked big time.
I gave myself permission to suck.
To be better next time.
To admit I totally could have done something better, and then did it better.
I called people out on their douchbaggery.
And freed myself of the ones who really don't want to grow either.
I let myself free fall.
And at times, not comfortably.
But I allowed myself to be free.
At the end of this year.
I feel it.
To be me.
Whoever I decide that to be.
Abandon was almost the word.
To live with reckless abandon.
To abandon the people holding me down.
To abandon the beliefs that are holding me back.
To just abandon.
Live with it.
But that felt too much like free.
I am living freely.
And loving every minute of it.
This year, I'm going to give it.
Simmer in it.
Let it envelope me.
Let it's warmth glow around me.
I'm going to seek the love of people who have asked to give it.
And stop looking for it in places where I know I won't find it.
I have some of the greatest friends in the entire world.
This year, I'm going to ask them to love me through some hairbrained ideas.
Like getting rid of my cell phone.
And most social media - don't worry matterers, I'll still be here.
I'm going to move.
I'm going to love every minute.